tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-371864352011-09-25T22:42:24.481+03:00"You see things, and you say,"why?" But I dream things that never were, and I say, "why not?" - Bernard ShawOutlandishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00158787689563750937noreply@blogger.comBlogger861100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37186435.post-67491509136205143232010-12-26T20:55:00.002+03:002010-12-26T20:58:04.597+03:00

Who am I kidding??? Yes I'm writing down my thoughts but am writing here for him to know how miserable I am whenever he gets to read it. That's how pathetic I've become.

Outlandishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00158787689563750937noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37186435.post-82387116822885922202010-12-24T03:12:00.001+03:002010-12-24T03:13:52.834+03:00

At the end you start thinking of the beginning. Now that we’re at the end I can’t stop thinking of how it was at the beginning. I remember the passion, the happiness, the thrill of meeting every day, missing him right after coming back home, talking for hours every night, the fights and making up. I remember the first touches, the first time I spoke about my feelings, I remember how much he cared

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Where do I begin? I’ve been going thru a really shitty period in my life since June… First I had an accident, had to live without my car for 2 months and hear all sorts of blame and preaching about me being reckless :), then on the same day my uncle passed away, then I had year-end shit at work, then I had fights with Khaled about my mom, some rest then MORE DAMN FIGHTS because of her, but it’s

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Finding your comfort zone and staying in it is not so good after all… I never used to cry no matter what happens, even if I did, I would do it while am alone and rarely in front of anyone, now I cry so easily and so fast. I never borrowed money from anyone in my whole life, till very recently. I was always my toughest judge and always tried to cut down on my bad habits, but now sometimes I even

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A twist of serendipity happened to me a year ago, on June 26th 2007. Till that day, I talked about happiness, falling in love, passion, trust, life, fun, pleasure, dreams. I talked a lot not knowing that I’ll learn later on that many of things I thought I knew were wrong cause only after that date I knew what it is to be happy, what falling in love really feels like, what it’s like to experience

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First, let’s keep God as in our “God” aside now so that I can speak freely.Divinity is something attainable for us Humans in ways we can’t easily imagine.. Let me put this way: everyone can be a god and everyone can be a slave, some find themselves in the role of Gods and others enjoy the serving role and both are equally satisfied. The real magic is knowing the role that fits you well (knowing

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Everything changed: the way I see my life, the meaning of my sarcastic existence as I see it, the way I deal with anger, pain, happiness, work load, jealousy, envy of other people, my relationship with my significant other and with people around me, my priorities in life… All have changed, not drastically, but the changes made everything more meaningful in a way. People around can also feel it

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Enough is enough, I've had it. I don't know what to do anymore, I just don't know. My mom is driving me nuts, I did all I could, no use, NO USE & am tired.She wants me to deal with her in the most tactful, thoughtful, caring, loving, considerate, wise, polite, appropriate way ALL THE TIME. She's stresed most of the time &she takes it all on me if, for a second, I dare to say what I think, if I

Outlandishhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00158787689563750937noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37186435.post-3735720511346298532008-03-10T16:49:00.003+03:002008-03-10T17:00:07.166+03:00

The thing about change is that it's enevitable :) so I'm learning to change, am learning to organize my time to act better in eah & every role I have in my life, my role as a daughter, a partner, a sister, a friend, an aunt, a working lady, a sister-in-law, a daughter-in-law, a colleague, a young lady, a human being.Believe me, it's not easy.I'm spending more time with my mom mainly, I know I've

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The more I live & the more I deal with girls, the more I feel alien to this gender (not in all senses, am straight as hell): a lot of girls are full of envy, jealousy and triviality, they’re so shallow. I gotta admit, I like to take care of myself, to dress well, and look good all the time, I love getting facial treats, massage, manicure & pedicure, but I do it for myself, to feel good, not to

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Need to better manage my time to do all the things I never have time to do, need to have clear priorities set, need to be more verbally expressive, need to learn to LISTEN MORE & INTERRUPT LESS, really need to lose 10 kilos.

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Suddenly I got this feeling that I should take more care of myself and my health and I decided to quit smoking. I quit on Jan 27th and thought I could get Khaled to quit too, but he disappointed me saying that he's not a heavy smoker & he doesn't have to quit now, so I started, in an act of stubborness, to smoke on a way smaller scale (2 or 3 cigs, whenever we meet).I just found out that I love

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I hate weddings, I just hate them.. not just weddings, I hate boring, meaningless gatherings like engagement parties, birthdays, “henna” nights and all these occasions where you just get to meet girls who wanna show off, who think they’re THE BOMB, while they actually suck. And in those silly henna nights, you get to stay with girls who just wanna wear the least amount of clothes to show most of

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Sometimes I just feel bored, it’s like a curse that haunts me, I’m never satisfied with anything, whenever I achieve or reach something I wanted, I start looking for more, or even something else. Nothing is good enough: a salary increase is something I definitely needed, yet when it was due, I thought to myself “well, it’ll help, but I’ll still have financial burdens”. No matter how many shoes,

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I don’t know what it is with my mom; she’s always cross with me, fighting over ridiculous things, she thinks am in grateful and this old story. But now am trying to be more thoughtful, I try to spend more time with her, take her out and do what she wants, am trying to be a good daughter as much as I can… I wish I succeed.The other thing about work… well, I don’t really wanna talk about work.. I

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Somehow I lost my mshmsh… my cat, he’s been with me for the past 8 and a half years. He just disappeared and I felt terrible about it cause it’s cold, he won’t get to eat the food he’s used to have and all that stuff. I got used to having him around, hiding my shoes so that he wouldn’t ruin them, having him next to me whenever am home, taking him to the vet every now & then, closing my wardrobe

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Friday, December 28th 2007 was one of the happiest days of my life, it's the day I got officially engaged to the man of my dreams.I don't know what to say, the feeling is overwhelming. I was the happiest girl alive :)I rememebr 6 or 7 months ago I used to say that I don't wanna get married soon, not before I turn 27 or 28, but all this changed when we met.End of June we met for the first time,

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Been tagged by Ra3d...Why I'm happy being a girl:- I'm being treated as a Goddess at least my boyfriend does :);- I can have my hair colored every now & then without being called gay;- I can smoke slim/mint-flavored cigs;- Indulging myself with all sorts of scrubs, body lotions & getting manicure/pedicure;- I can be a stay-at-home mom without being called "goz el set";- I have all the right to

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I’m having lots of bewildering feelings & scattered thoughts that are draining me, draining me of every moment of happiness I have hardly earned. I’m complete/whole on my own and no one completes me, but together with my significant other we create a whole new third entity if I may call it.This entity is the reason behind the security I claim to have found and I can’t have that shaken, yet I find

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Most of the people around you, if not all, each is trying to get a piece of you; a little piece of you and when they get it, they want a bigger piece of you or they chew it and throw it away.This is, shockingly, a revelation that occurred to me the other day. Suddenly I see clearly through each & every soul I’m dealing with, well, not so suddenly, but let’s say I unconsciously chose not to admit

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I love this poem, sounds very foolishlily sentimental from me, but I'm posting it anyway:"How Do I Love Thee? by Elizabeth Browning :"How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.I love thee to the depth and breadth and heightMy soul can reach, when feeling out of sightFor the ends of Being and ideal Grace.I love thee to the level of everyday'sMost quiet need, by sun and candle-light.I love thee

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It’s been a year, a whole year since I started blogging, a lot has happened during this past year, I got coincidently introduced to the world of blogs & got so much attached it, especially the political blogs, then I dived into more personal ones & decided to launch my own.I haven’t been a dedicated blogger, but now am trying to keep it as frequent as possible. It wasn’t totally new to me the

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I wanna get isolated for a while, don’t feel like talking to anyone or seeing anyone, don’t wanna hear any words of encouragement or blame, I don’t wanna look people in the eye so that they wouldn’t know am not ok, I always manage to keep a smile & people don’t recognize easily that I’m sad or that here’s something wrong with me, but today I failed.Today, I’m feeling helpless and down. I know

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A past not so glorious is haunting me. Some meaningless acquaintances, wasted time, irresponsible acts are just eating up the most valuable thing in my life.I don’t know what’s gotten into me! I feel so bad about myself cause yesterday I lied, I lied straight without hesitating, even if I told the truth the next second, it doesn’t wash away what I did. Every time, I keep telling myself that I won

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MetallicaSo close, no matter how far Couldn't be much more from the heart Forever trusting who we are and nothing else matters Never opened myself this way Life is ours, we live it our way All these words I don't just say and nothing else matters Trust I seek and I find in you Every day for us something new Open mind for a different view and nothing else matters never cared for what they do never

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Don't know where to begin, am overwhelmed by zillion thoughts/feelings that I can't organize in my head, thoughts that can't be put into word that'd make sense.Could it be that I have two (even more) sides, switching between them too often that am starting to be shaped into some form of a mutant.If am alright, then why do I feel torn and lost inside? I was reading some of my old diaries and I

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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Second Level of Hell!Here is how you matched up against all the levels:LevelScorePurgatory (Repenting Believers)HighLevel 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)ModerateLevel 2 (Lustful)HighLevel 3 (Gluttonous)HighLevel 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)HighLevel 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)LowLevel 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very LowLevel 7 (Violent)LowLevel 8-

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DisorderRatingParanoid Personality Disorder:ModerateSchizoid Personality Disorder:HighSchizotypal Personality Disorder:Very HighAntisocial Personality Disorder:LowBorderline Personality Disorder:ModerateHistrionic Personality Disorder:ModerateNarcissistic Personality Disorder:HighAvoidant Personality Disorder:LowDependent Personality Disorder:ModerateObsessive-Compulsive Disorder:Moderate-- Take

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Irresponsible, impulsive, spendthrift, stubborn, hasty, reckless.....Am all of the above and more :( Yes, am not perfect, yes I spend money on things I don't need that I just like & can't leave without getting them, yes I could get stuff that will hurt me financially later on. Yes am reckless in so many things in my life, got hurt from this many times but insisted on going against it all and stay

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In the middle of all my scattered thoughts, my straying dreams, my aging fears and my spread-for-scrutiny identity I have this one truth in my life, a truth beyond any form of doubt, beyond my skeptic mind and my wildest dreams.When all my worries just seem so little the moment I think of you, when I feel so secure once you hold me, when I smile when I just think of you, when I feel blessed

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Betrayal is very hard. When you trust someone with your dreams, hopes, life, future, fears, your very existence and they fail you, that's the worse kind of betrayal, because it's from someone you love & care about and not from an enemy. The element of it being so unexpected is so bitter and agonizing. I wonder how people could be so cruel, not thoughtful & selfish when we only thought of them as

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I feel like I have a double personality depending on the way I look at things around me or things happening to me. At times, I think everything in my life is "pending", whether it's because of me or it's just out of my hands. For instance, am starting to get bored of my current post at work and this is not a good sign cause if I start this downfall, I'll keep finding reasons why I should quit,

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Cold PlayWhen you try your best, but you don’t succeedWhen you get what you want, but not what you needWhen you feel so tired, but you can’t sleepStuck in reverseWhen the tears come streaming down your faceWhen you lose something you can’t replaceWhen you love someone, but it goes to wasteCould it be worse?Lights will guide you homeAnd ignite your bonesAnd I will try to fix youHigh up above or

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Am I evil? I don’t know why I’ve been getting this feeling lately!It’s like everything I do or say, even if I mean well or if it’s just spontaneous, it turns out to be a fire bomb. But most of the time it’s not about my intentions, cause am talking about a whole different thing now. Am talking about me being ME, just by being myself I can get people go mad.Maybe I need to learn to be more tactful

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HoobastankI’m not a perfect personAs many things I wish I didn’t doBut I continue learningI never meant to do those things to youAnd so I have to say before I goThat I just want you to knowI’ve found a reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over newand the reason is youI’m sorry that I hurt youIt’s something I must live with everydayAnd all the pain I put you throughI wish that

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One of the worst things in the world is broken promises cause when they turn to meaningless & empty words you just lose faith in everything and you start questioning all the solid facts. Maybe that’s why I try not to promise easily, cause I never wanna do this in my life, I don’t wanna promise/do things that I wouldn’t be able to sustain for good. I was missing out on a lot of things apparently.

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I got this in my horoscope yesterday: “Keep in mind that there is a difference between having an independent thought and just being contrary -- you will need to understand this distinction”Ok, I don’t argue just for the sake of arguing, do I?? No, I just don’t like being told what to do, I value my independence & freedom more than anything else in the world, I do accept other people’s opinions/

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Didn't go to work today, was feeling too tired to go out of bed..mom gave me a speech about me being a lazy ass, irresponsible & all the usual shit.Went to have lunch with a friend of mine, we talked alot and for the first time I talked with her about my fears.Told her how happy I am right now, but am afraid I'm gonna ruin this the way I always screw everything up! I just have this gift of

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I wanna move & live with my bf in a place of our own without getting married, I wanna know what it’s like to wake up & find him beside me. It would be great if we could live together & give it a try without having to take the huge step of getting married, who knows what could happen!The concept of marriage to me is very scary, it’s just too much responsibility for me to handle & am not sure if I’

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I don’t know why whenever my mom gets mad at me, she takes it on my brother & vice versa…yesterday she was mad because my bro quit his job & went to work in some other company without telling her & he’s already having plans to leave it… preparing for other interviews & so on and all…then suddenly to her we’re reckless, lousy kids. I have absolutely nothing to do with this, why would she drag me

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I can safely say that I’m happy. When was the last time I was THAT happy? I can’t remember, I don’t think I was ever happy in the first place.I could never have imagined, 2 months ago, that I’d be in the state I’m in right now. I don’t know how it happened so fast, I don’t know how he managed to sweep me off my feet, all I know is that I’m madly, completely, totally, utterly & truly in love.I

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I always wanted to go sing in public, maybe a karaoke... I just knew this guy performing in a couple of untraditional bands.. he said I can go for an audition, and if I sound ok, maybe they can invite me to be a gust singer in their next gig... Isn't that so coooooooool! I mean talk about being heard :)The thing is they only sing arabic stuff, and I'm not much into teh arabic songs... maybe I'd

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Soooo... went to this Frank Sinatra tribute for the Riff Band, which was just awesome, I had so much fun really..In the last couple of weeks, I've been working my butt off, having this project to finish and I tend to work really fast trying not to screw things up at the same time, which gets to me at the end, but still I indulge in some fun activity to keep the balance.I got to know this guy,

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***You Are Somewhat Machiavellian***You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!How Machiavellian Are You?http://www.blogthings.com/howmachiavellianareyouquiz/

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I'm not sad, depressed or anything, just going through a phase of indifference, where I don't really care what happens or what might happen, I'm not sharing my thoughts with anyone, everybody doesn't seem to really get anything of what I say, if I keep silent, they just ask what's wrong and they all think that I feel lonely because I recently got dumped if I may call it that way, but that's not

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GREEN DAYI walk a lonely roadThe only one that I have ever knownDon’t know where it goesBut it’s home to me and I walk aloneI walk this empty streetOn the Boulevard of Broken DreamsWhere the city sleepsand I’m the only one and I walk aloneI walk aloneI walk aloneMy shadow’s the only one that walks beside meMy shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beatingSometimes I wish someone out there will

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Yesterday I had so much fun, went to a music concert at the Chinese Garden, a lot of bands performed pop songs that are reaaaaaaally cool, they're like folklore or something, they sounded great, and there was also some Jazz, which wasn't so bad. I never really heard any of these bands before but I surely plan to attend future concerts for them. It was nice to see new people, fresh air, nice

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Watched Spiderman 3… it's very cool. Spiderman who's supposed to be all good, saving the helpless, helping people, even he has flaws, the movie showed the dark side in him.We all have dark spots that we are so keen to hide, I believe that we're all born good & pure but growing up, we choose to either remain pure or we deviate to the darker side. Life is all about the choices we make I guess.

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Just added at the side bar some of the upcoming events in Cairo that I plan to attend, will be updating than regularly

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My friend "E" who went thru this excorcism is getting married soon , FINALLY she and her fiance overcame the obstacles and they're gonna be together,, I'm so happy for her, happier than ever, although she went to another sheikh and she still thinks the Jinn is still there, the other sheikh told her he's been around for like 10 years and that he's mad she's getting married. WTH?I got some new

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Again, thinking of my life and the people around me, thinking of how I have a good number of friends and how I just hang out to kill the time… Sometimes I feel I'm there with them but am not really there, y'know, I'm somewhere else thinking, wondering, feeling lonely.I just like to do different things than hanging out in cafes every day, so I'm engaging myself more and more into other stuff. I

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I met this guy on a friends network site, we worked in a call center when I was in college, it's pretty amazing how small this world is. I remember these days, or I remember certain things in them, I was just crazy, spending my day sleeping, then going to work all night, getting back home round 12:00 every night, having fun with colleagues, having an American manager who wanted to take me with

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Tests day? yeah, today was an officical vacation and I got to wake up late, which so cool. Me and some friends at work were planning to go horse-back riding, but it was canceled. And I had nothing better to do than catch up on my quizes :) No really, been reading alot about this Law of Attraction and it's so amazing. I've been implementing this so called "SECRET" through out my life, even before

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You'll Change The World As An Optimist! ://www.hungermovement.org/images/hmsurvey-optimist.gif" alt="Optimist" title="Optimist" /> Your motto: Keep it positive. While others think about the magnitude of the world’s problems only to find themselves overwhelmed, you have the ability to hone in on the achievements. So it’s no surprise others are thrilled to have you on their team: With a natural

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You're a noble nature! The Karma Test Brought to you by Tickle

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You're a Believing in yourself! Palm Reading Test Brought to you by Tickle

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I am infinityYou may worship me, but from afar_what number are you?this quiz by orsa

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Music & Lyrics SoundtrackI've been living with a shadow overhead I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bedI've been lonely for so longTrapped in the past, I just can't seem to move onI've been hiding all my hopes and dreams awayJust in case I ever need 'em again somedayI've been setting aside timeTo clear a little space in the corners of my mindAll I wanna do is find a way back into loveI

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I'm really happy ... my best friend finally did it, she got a new boyfriend :) the guy has been in love with her for quite some time now and she's been keeping him as a friend only. I used to ask him not to give up on her and he always said that he'll never do, which turned out true... I don't really know what happened, she was in a weird relationship before this and now she really really needed

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Sometimes I feel I don't belong to anything, and can't relate to anyone around me. I know a lot of people, I have a good number of friends and colleagues but still I got this feeling of not belonging.I just feel so lost and confused sometimes and I need someone who I can relate to, couldn't find that someone, not in family, not between friends, not at work, no where.I found out lately that I

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Woke up this morning, so lazy and tired couldn't go to work… some water pipe exploded and there's no water for a couple of days now, what is that a nightmare? I so wanna go to a Karaoke, wanna sing out loud, doesn't matter if I don't have nice voice, who cares! Maybe I just wanna be heard.I blew my diet……. lost like 5 kilos only, still wanna lose about 10 other kilos… So from now on I'll keep a

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It’s been a while since I posted here, been keeping to my written journal mostly. A lot has happened but at the end I find that nothing really happened.I had a boyfriend who’s smart, funny, open-minded, cool, who thinks of stuff other than his unit and good at his job. I can safely that he’s different tan any other guy I ever met. But then, he’s a bit weird, weirder than I am J and he has so much

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Simple PlanDo you ever feel like breaking down?Do you ever feel out of place?Like somehow you just don’t belongAnd no one understands you?Do you ever wanna run away?Do you lock yourself in your roomWith the radio on turned on so loudAnd no one hears you screamingNo you don’t know what it’s likeWhen nothing feels alrightYou don’t know what it’s like to be like me...To be hurt, to feel lostTo be

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Don’t feel like doing anything lately, can’t see joy in anything I do!!! I try to get out of this mood but it only grows deeper.Maybe I’m just PMSing, but it was never so severe. I’m sick of everything around, don’t wanna talk with anybody. What do I do to get out of this shitty mood?? I go work out to lose those extra pounds, had my hair colored, try to hang out with my friends, but then, I

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Been thinking about youWithout even trying, I’ve done itThere’s something about youI can’t put my finger on itMonday was fine andI was on a highOh you thrilled meI should be alrightbut Friday I died when you killed meYou’re bringing me down to my knees,oh ohLove me forever or baby, just let it go, oh ohI’m begging you please to ease, allow your feelingsto show, oh ohYou’re bringing me down to my

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What if I liked a guy and I just told him that I have feelings for him? why would I have to wait for him to take the first move? What if I asked him out? would he think I'm too easy-to-get? Maybe he would, but that's not the worst case scenario, which would be him turning me down...But guys always take the first move, maybe because girls encourage them. In my case, being a girl I mean, I might

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I hate the world today,You're so good to me ,I know but I can't change.I tried to tell you but,you look at me like maybe I'm an angel underneath,innocent and sweet.Yesterday I cried, You must have been relieved to see the softer side,I can understand how you'd be so confused,I don't envy you,I'm a little bit of everything all rolled into one.I'm a bitch, I'm a lover,I'm a child, I'm a mother,I'm

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I feel so good today, it’s one of those days that you wake on the RIGHT side of the bed, although I haven’t slept since yesterday, probably this good mood continues as long as I don’t sleep.Maybe it’s just the weather, I love winter, it makes me reflect even more and I could go into an irresistible, non-stop state of pondering.I was so made a couple of days ago cause I bought this book called “Il

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Pink FloydBeyond the horizon of the place we lived when we were young In a world of magnets and miracles our troughts strayed constandly and without boundary The ringing of the division bell had begin Along the long road and on down the causeway Do they still meet there by the cut There was a ragged band that followed in our footsteps Running before time took our dreams away Leaving the myriad

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I can’t seem to settle in one place, quit my first job after a year, and then went to another organization and just quit before my probation period is over, now I’m gonna join a multinational company which will pay me less than what I’m getting here but what the hell, I know this choice will pay off later on, gotta learn to be patient.

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Bon JoviI Lost All Faith In My God In His Religion TooI Told The Angels They Could Sing Their Songs To Someone NewI Lost All Trust In My FriendsI Watched My Heart Turn To StoneI Thought That I Was Left To Walk This Wicked World AloneTonight I'll Dust Myself OffTonight I'll Suck My Gut InI'll Face The Night And I'll PretendI Got Something To Believe InAnd I Had Lost Touch With ReasonI Watched Life

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Am I one of those people who complain about everything all the time? I started to sound like them anyway. I don't wanna be like that...don’t wanna stick to talking and talking and talking then doing absolutely nothing: typical Egyptian attitude!!Don’t know what I’m saying, apparently nonsense. I’ll just go drink some coffee, might help me out.

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What if this is all turns out to be just a dream and I wake up to find my self a 7 year old girl or boy? What if Heaven and Hell were just man-created ideas to scare people? What if there's no after life and death is just the time when you cease to exist and not a gate to an eternal life? What if all the history we learned is just fabricated stories? What if I just lose faith and cease to believe

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I never believed in exorcism and the possession of evil spirits and all that blurry stuff. I always thought that exorcists are just cons who use naive and desperate people. What I think is, people could have many problems, might face unfortunate events and this all leads them to think that there’s might be some sort of spell that’s cast on them.A good friend of mine told me last week about her

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Alanis MorissetteWhat If God Was One Of UsIf God had a name what would it be?And would you call it to his face?If you were faced with him in all his glorywhat would you ask if you had just one question?Yeah, Yeah, God is greatYeah, Yeah, God is goodYeah Yeah yeah yeah yeahWhat if God was one of us?Just a slob like one of usJust a stranger on the busTrying to make his way homeIf God had a faceWhat

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Life is not so bad after all, just knew a close friend of mine got accepted in a new job, actually it's her first job and she was kinda hopless. Way to go girl... you never know what life's got in store for you :)

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I gotta try writing shorter posts :)

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Why is it so hard for people to accept others who are different from them? Why do I have to get silly comments about things I do or opinions and principles I adopt? Why is it so challenging to be me?People just spend so much of their lives fearing what others think or might think of them that they actually end up not living the way they wanted. I happen to be a person who wants to live her life

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ScorpionsMaybe I, maybe youCan make a change to the worldWe're reaching out for a soulThat's kind of lost in the darkMaybe I, maybe youCan find the key to the starsTo catch the spirit of hopeTo save one hopeless heartYou look up to the skyWith all those questions in mindAll you need is to hearThe voice of your heartIn a world full of painSomeone's calling your nameWhy don't we make if trueMaybe I

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“When was the last time you did something for the first time?” I heard this once in a TV ad before and it only made me think to myself: "what is it that I could possibly do, something new and thrilling that I never did before, maybe it would make me happy.So I start to think of a reason why I'm not happy, and a reason why I should be happy, and of a way to be happy. People could find me a

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Been thinking a lot lately, not that I ever stop thinking, but these days I just can’t help but think of the way I chose to lead my life. I mean, I always did what I wanted, most of the time, I never care about what people might think or say about me, and I just follow my instinct.But what is it that I really do?? I go to work, hang out with friends, read a lot and that’s about it. When I come to

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Pink FloydLost in thought and lost in timeWhile the seeds of life and the seeds of change were plantedOutside the rain fell dark and slowWhile I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastimeI took a heavenly ride through our silenceI knew the moment had arrivedFor killing the past and coming back to life.I just love this song

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Done with the initial settings, you'll see alot of me pretty soon.

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